i've been thinking about my future lately. i really don't like when people say things to me like, "oh your life is about to change so much. say bye-bye to jake and jenna!" it drives me crazy. i know my life is about to change... this is what happens when people have babies. but the more i hear things like that, i start to feel sad inside and i really don't want to feel sad inside. i love little mrs. (as jake likes to call her) so much. we all know this. we all know the history and how thankful i am to be having her. but i do think about jake and me and how much i love what we've got. it's been a good 2.5 years, and there's been a lot that we've had to go through. we've had many trying moments where we almost just wanted to give up on life. but through all that, we've gotten extremely close and i think we're at a point where we truly, finally, understand one another.
yesterday morning, we were in the kitchen making breakfast. anyone who knows jake knows that he has to have a theme song for whatever it is he's doing. making breakfast is one of those things. he was on youtube and was searching for the best workout songs. he came to this one video that had 30 second clips for each song, and there were like 20 songs. he decides that we need to have a dance contest, each taking a song. we had no idea what was coming, which is what made it fun. so we stop making breakfast, assume our positions in the middle of the kitchen (facing each other of course), and the contest began. i tried to c-walk, pregnant style, which he thought was hilarious. i can't c-walk. he can. but i can't. then we made a rule that you can't move your feet... only your upper body. this made it even funnier. it's moments like those that make me think, "wow. my life is going to change, yes. but we can still have dance parties together. we'll just have little mrs. to make it even more fun." i'm trying really hard to cherish our little moments we have together these days, and it's making me feel very thankful for every minute.
with that said, i will not say "bye-bye to jake and jenna." i won't do it, because i don't believe i have to. i am not naive.. i know life is going to be much different and there is going to be a lot of adjusting going on. i believe in change, and i think i've done a pretty good job of embracing change throughout my life. this is going to be a change that we have been praying for for a very long time. this is going to be a change that we're going to love.
it will be really amazing to not watch jake kiss my belly anymore, but to kiss a little round face. that is definitely a change i am looking forward to.
so, here's to the future. cheers, to jake, jenna and little mrs.