11 February 2010

the real me.... these days, at least.

this is me today. it's 2:37 pm. the babe sleeps... but i'm assuming for not much longer. today i am not showered (although i DO shower every day... just not yet today), haven't brushed my teeth yet, wearing my all-time favorite cardigan and the striped gap shirt that i sleep in quite often. no make-up (obviously). my chalk board is behind me, which i wrote "going mental" on with an arrow pointing down on the top of my head. then when i took the picture, the writing was backwards. so i gave up. i've been paying hospital bills and organizing the freaking paper piles that form overnight on my kitchen counter. i also ran the dishwasher, made my bed, bathed my child, and am currently doing loads of laundry.
i always thought about what it would be like to be a mom. my own mom made it look so easy. and she was always showered and pretty. and i'm positive her teeth were brushed. the thing is, it's not so bad in my opinion. i don't feel stressed. the only time when my anxiety shoots through the roof is when goldie is crying really hard. she hardly cries, so when she does, i'm like, "oh my gosh how can i help you my beautiful normally serene child!!!"
ohhhh, the beauty of it all is that i am not going anywhere today. i am doing things around the house. i don't mind being the way i am today. i'm comfortable. but i am going to go brush my teeth as soon as i'm finished with this yogurt. know this. i am going to cherish days like this because it won't always be this way. i'm excited for spring when i feel comfortable taking goldie out and about. but until then, i'm enjoying my current situation.
i feel thankful every day for this life that i live.

8 comments:

Ashley Kay said...

hey jenna!
don't know if you remember me, I was Rachel's roommate at Alpine Village a few years ago. Just saw your blog and congrats on the new baby girl! She is adorable! :)

Jen said...

Oh my goodness. I feel the same way Jenna! From taking forever to shower for the day all the way to waiting to brush my teeth. Haha Love it and love your blog. You're beautiful!

Andrea said...

welcome to my world...and Jenye's. brushing your teeth sometimes is just a luxury that you don't have time to get to and that's ok. glad you're enjoying these moments!

POJO Fitness said...

jealous. this has been the week from hell .. already had a few breakdowns this week. your pretty.

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Sheryl said...

the real jenna is my hero. it's funny that you said your mom made it look easy...that's how i feel when read your blog. your house is always so put together and seem like such a good mom. keep up the good work girly.

Michelle said...

cutest mom ever

{Layla} said...

so glad you are cherishing these days.
I would give up anything (almost anything, i'd like to keep my hubby) to be a mom that stays at home in her p.j.s, doing housework, and feeling overwhelmed. That sounds wonderful to me, especially the mom part.