this is me today. it's 2:37 pm. the babe sleeps... but i'm assuming for not much longer. today i am not showered (although i DO shower every day... just not yet today), haven't brushed my teeth yet, wearing my all-time favorite cardigan and the striped gap shirt that i sleep in quite often. no make-up (obviously). my chalk board is behind me, which i wrote "going mental" on with an arrow pointing down on the top of my head. then when i took the picture, the writing was backwards. so i gave up. i've been paying hospital bills and organizing the freaking paper piles that form overnight on my kitchen counter. i also ran the dishwasher, made my bed, bathed my child, and am currently doing loads of laundry.
i always thought about what it would be like to be a mom. my own mom made it look so easy. and she was always showered and pretty. and i'm positive her teeth were brushed. the thing is, it's not so bad in my opinion. i don't feel stressed. the only time when my anxiety shoots through the roof is when goldie is crying really hard. she hardly cries, so when she does, i'm like, "oh my gosh how can i help you my beautiful normally serene child!!!"
ohhhh, the beauty of it all is that i am not going anywhere today. i am doing things around the house. i don't mind being the way i am today. i'm comfortable. but i am going to go brush my teeth as soon as i'm finished with this yogurt. know this. i am going to cherish days like this because it won't always be this way. i'm excited for spring when i feel comfortable taking goldie out and about. but until then, i'm enjoying my current situation.
i feel thankful every day for this life that i live.