13 June 2008

something amiss.

what is wrong with me? this is what i keep asking myself. do you ever just want to jump into someone else's body and experience what it's like to be her for a day? just to see. just to see. just to see if she thinks like i do, or i am just a nut case sometimes. i think i've been feeling worthless these days only because i'm not doing much. my independent study classes have not yet arrived, and as a result i find myself doing laundry a little too often, spending a little too much time at the pool, and eating a little too much every hour of the day. i feel like i am losing talents that i use to have. i was doing some google searches online, because, why not? and i found this thing that i remember seeing on the cover of a hallmark freshink card (my favorite cards on the entire earth). it's my new mantra. i'm going to recite it everyday and get some self-worth back. i'm in a funk, which is the reason there have been no posts (my old blog depresses me more than i can honestly explain. it is so ugly and i can't understand why it doesn't want to work for me all of a sudden. this is why i have started over. oh, it hurts). anyway, here it is. i am all of these things, and more. and so are all of you. goodday.

11 comments:

Grant & Brittany said...

Okay. but we had fun today right? I just would love to tell you that YOU ARE NORMAL. Basically... I'm in the same boat. I need to feel productive. SERIOUSLY. I AM DYING. I mean I'm just...ya know...the next floor down on the other side of the building STARING at a computer. Anyway... here is the key- Do what you love. There are WAY more things to do that we haven't done.

I am very happy to see that you are going to make a book. That comforts me. I was worried about all those posts starting from forever ago.

When I come to this blog.... it feels like a breath of fresh air. Very clean.

jenna marie said...

yes this is exactly what you needed. a new blog and a fresh start. you are all those things listed-i promise. yes we are still friends. i have been a bummer this last month-it's been a hard one for me too. thanks for the support and love. now get out there and conquer.

jenna marie said...

p.s. did you ever discover if in fact you can do a pull up?

cait&brig said...

oh how I miss thee... What a cheerful new blog, I love it! If only you could give mine a makeover again! Oh, and would you please change my child from jimmy to kimmie!

andrea.roche said...

I'm with u on this one. Just remember, things could always be worse...you could be stuck in the middle of nowhere Idaho...with not one soul in your age range. ;) Perhaps we need to create ideas for all of us to keep busy with.

Meikel & Luke said...

Jenna!
I love blog world! And I am so glad that you found me! And your blog is absolutely adorable. I will stalk your blog from now on. Yay!

canyouhearme? said...

reading this post felt all too familiar to me. without getting into all the boring details...just know that you're not the only one out there who has suddenly felt dumb, worthless, etc. whenever i dont feel super, super busy, i start getting that. it's rather depressing. i love this quote from Rainer Maria Rilke-

"No feeling is final."

which is to say, you won't feel this way forever. chin up.

loves, one of ur random stalkers :)

Keeping Up to the Jones's said...

i hope that title of you book is

i am meow.

rob and liz jones said...

my name just changed to something else i have to see if this works now

rob and liz jones said...

much better.. love you

Jessica said...

LOVE the mantra. beautiful blog!