06 July 2009

the lime post.

it doesn't seem too long ago when i created a post about the twins being the size of limes. now, it is just 1 lime, a lime that i'm very thankful for. i remember a week after i posted that lime post, i lost our first twin. 13 weeks is looming in front of me right now--it's the first milestone. after that, 16 weeks. once i get past that week, i think i will feel a lot more peaceful about this pregnancy. it's all of a sudden going very slow.  i've basically been out of energy, feeling like a worthless wife while husband goes out and works hard and harder.  i sleep a lot.  baby is sucking the life out of me, but that's okay.  please do, baby.  take it all.  today i am going to go work out, whether it kills me or not.  i'm also going to get a new bra, because well... i need one. i'm stressing about going private because i simply do not want to leave anyone out.  i've never been one to leave people out.  maybe i'll prolong it a little longer... i don't know. i'm also working on refinancing our home in utah---quick, as me how much fun that is.  i have a doctor's appointment on wednesday and if i don't hear a heartbeat, i might die.
can you tell these are my random thoughts?  no order here.  here's the thing.  while all these things are going on in my head and heart, i still feel a small ounce of peace deep inside that reminds me that i still believe that this coconut is the one.  i mean, what else can i do?  what else can i think?  nothing but POSITIVE.  bah!
if jillian picks wes again tonight, i am going to have a hernia. 
the other day, i woke up feeling kind of dizzy.  i had to go to the bathroom, so off i went, still feeling dizzy.  as i was doing my business, the room was slightly spinning, but not too bad.  i stood up to walk back to bed when all of a sudden i started dry heaving.  awesome.  haven't puked in a good 2 weeks and the sickness hasn't been too bad this time around (THANK HEAVENS). so whatever, i took it in stride.  i had nothing inside of me, which means i wasn't really throwing up much.  just heave after heave.  you should know that when i throw up, i throw up hard--like pop some blood vessels hard.  well, while i was throwing up, i realized that i was peeing my pants at the same time (from the pressure of course).  when i stood up, i felt something trickling down my lip.  blood!  a bloody nose!  i started laughing because seriously, it was out of control.  oh man.  at least it makes for a good story.
that's all for today.  going to eat lunch and go to the gym.  p.s. my little sister is in ghana and i think she is so freaking cool.

27 comments:

Katherine Fajen said...

I'm so happy for you, I hope everything goes well. I love reading your blog, so if you do go private I hope I make the cut! :) If not, I understand! katherinefajen@gmail.com

Stephanie said...

best wishes. i believe the coconut is the one too.

Kelley said...

Yes if Jillian picks Wes I will scream! I already thought she made a big mistake by letting Jesse go:(.

I'm keeping you and the coconut in my prayers!

Canadian Princess said...

That is a funny story...but crazy too! Keep up the positive thoughts and I'll keep praying!

Philip and Mandy said...

Jenna, hi, Mandy again. Just wanted you to know that the story you told at the end, pretty much the same thing has happened to me, so I can relate!! And also, I too, will pretty much stop watching the Bachelorette if Jillian picks Wes again tonight. What a slime. Anyway, glad to hear all your thoughts and you've got lots of prayers coming your way!
-M

erica said...

you dont know me...but i hope you prolong about going private. i'm a friend of caitlin's and have occasionally popped in to take a peek at your life. your blog is hilarious! congrats on the baby! so exciting!!
i had to laugh out loud when you threw up and peed your pants a little...i did that a few times as well.

Danielle said...

that's a funny story Jenna. My favorite crazy pregnancy story is one that happened to my sister in law. She was also going to the bathroom doing her business...in a public stall at church. The smell of her own business made her want to cover her nose with her shirt...so she did. And then she puked inside her shirt...at church! Then she had to steal the keys from her husband in priesthood before she could leave! Ha. OH pregnancy. Gotta love it.

andrea.roche said...

bodily fluid stories rock.
apparently, i'm a 8 year old boy.

Erin and James said...

my hubby and i decided we would never watch the bachelorette again if she picks wes, he is lame!
oh the joys of being prego and the things you do and you tell everyone because hey, it's ok you are prego!
i would love to be added to your private blog if you have room!
emlow07@gmail.com

*LAYLA and AUSTIN* said...

oh woman, I love your random thoughts. They make me smile. THanks for sharing.
I agree about Jillian and Wes--what is SHE thinking?
You and yours are in our prayers--all will be well, just keep taking it in strides--you are truly amazing Jenna. Much love.

Justin and Julie said...
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Justin and Julie said...

Prayers for your sweet little lime! :) I love your posts- they are so uplifting and encouraging! They always give me a little boost! However, I completely understand if I don't make the cut- right now, you shouldn't fret about blog cuts. Focus on staying comfy and rested so your little lime can grow big and strong!

Morgan and Stuart said...

Jillian. Is. Making. Me. Frustrated. It's like she doesn't have common sense. Ugh. Also, I'm sorry you're feeling sick.

Amy said...

i realized i left a comment on the post about going private and didn't leave my email address. so it's amybarlow41@hotmail.com. i'm one of the kent griffeth girls and would love to be able to keep up with you and your family. but i agree some some of the other comments... please don't stress yourself out with blog "cuts" right now... though i would love to make it, when and if it happens. :) stay healthy and don't be stressed because you have a ton of prayers going up for you and your family right now. everything wil work out the way heavenly father has planned it too. you have a wonderful family who love you and are there for you. :) good luck!

The Tersigni Family said...

Hi. I don't actually know you, but my husband knew Ani (and maybe you) his freshman year, which has lead me to your blog in a round-about way. I love your pretty blog, and check it more often than I should (like now, when I should be working on this research thesis). But, I wanted to let you know about some of my experiences, before you feel like something is terribly wrong, like I did. When I was pregnant I kept getting very dizzy, and passing out, which made me soooo sick for a few hours afterward. I couldn't figure it out, and my Dr. kept telling me it was low blood sugar. I finally figured out (from talking to someone who had the same problem) that for some women, the baby can sit on your vena cava, and cut off your blodd if you sit or lay down wrong (or all the time, near the end). So...I just couldn't lay on my back, or sit upright. It was a hassle, but at least I knew that standing up and walking, or laying on my side made it go away. If your dizzy spells don't get better, maybe that would help. All in all though, being dizzy and nearly laying down at church was worth it for my cute boy. Hope this helps!!

I would also love to keep reading your blog, but I understand the 100 limit. So...do as you must. But feel free to look at my much-less-exciting blog!

Kayla

Heath and Gretchen said...

Ohhh pregnancy. Jenna, I am so sorry to hear you're feeling sick, but here's a story that should lighten your day. Being pregnant in Utah is one thing - you can look 16 years old and won't get a second glance. Being prego in the same town as one of the nation's top party schools is another story. I got so many nasty glares from sorority girls - I always felt the need to justify my circumstances and flash my ring with the hopes that they'd catch on. Anyways, one day when I was feeling particularly huge and self-conscious. I walked around the corner of a WalMart isle and there stood two college girls. They took one glance at me and that’s when their jaws drops – they were totally disgusted. Then one of them said "damn girl…woops!?" (more like 'dahammmm gurl’ and woops as in was your baby an accident!?) Yeeeah…needless to say I still haven’t gotten over that one. :) I hope you start feeling better soon! I’ll be thinking about you and the little coconut!

P.S. Limes and coconut got me thinking…have you ever heard Harry Nilsson’s Coconut song??? Google it! :)

Michelle said...

Jenna - you make me laugh so hard. the puking, peeing, and bloody nose is one I've never heard before...you make me laugh. I loved the one sentence about the bachelorette....i will also, have a hernia. And with my second pregnancy, I had a ritual (not by my choosing) - every morning at precisely 7:30 am to go in the bathroom and do my morning dry heave. I hope you start feeling a little bit better...and hope and pray that your pregnancy continues to go well...all the sickness is a good sign! baby is growing and making you sick just like it should be! love you!

Ali said...

yes, when I was preggo I threw up on the side of the road half way to Utah and wet my pants. Nothing like digging through your suitcase for new pants in the middle of no where. A definite low point for me. Hopefully that was yours! We are thinking of you guys!!

*Jord and Amy* said...

Hey Jenna! I'm a random reader that made herself known awhile ago. I totally understand that you have many followers and not enough room, so don't even feel bad. But I want you to know I wish the best for you guys. You have truly uplifted me. Reading this post made me smile, so big! It's so good to know other people go through crazy hilarious things too, but I'm sorry it happened to you :( If you ever have room someday my email is alp2110@yahoo.com. You should be able to see my blog too, so you know I'm not a weirdo, just pretty boring!

Trent & Brooke said...

hi jenna. i think i am probably considered a 'random reader' to your blog. i found it through andrea faulkner's. i'm friends with ali and andrea. We've met, but i think only briefly a few times. anyways, i do love your blog and saw that you're going private. would love to keep reading, but i understand if there isn't room! my email is brooklynannholmes@gmail.com. my blog is brookeandtrent.blogspot.com if you want to look. anyways, hope all is well for you guys!

Annalisa said...

congrats on your little lime.

smiles & hugs. if you go private, don't leave me out. helpfulannalisaATgmailDOTcom

you'll hear a heartbeat, we're praying for you. loves!!

Mike and Alexis said...

ding dong wes is gone. yay! how happy are you?

Lindsey said...

I totally agreed about Wes. I watched it this morning. What a JERK!.. Anyways. I am so excited for ya. I hope that your doctor's apt. goes well and I hope that you are feeling ok.

AaReAn said...

laughing. out loud. great post. love the randomness. :-)

Karey said...

Oh, Jenna! Funny story! Pregnancy certainly helps you keep it real, doesn't it?!

One idea to help your blog be more private without actually going private would be to change your blog address to something that doesn't include your name (letting us all know that it will happen on a certain date), and then change your settings so Google etc. can't crawl your site. Just a couple of things that I/people I know have done :)

It must be hard to go private when you have so many people out there who love you!

Aunt Lana said...

Dear Jenna Lou..course you know that I have peed my pants too numerous times-one time I peed clear across the bedroom trying to get to the bathroom and Doug was watching me...totally disgusted.He just didn't get it! I love reading your blog..it's the only way I keep up.I am praying for you..God is in control sweetie and He is good. All in His time:) Love you!!!

Russ and Teryn said...

I think anyone who has ever had a miscarriage, can understand your concern and thoughts (especially before you try and hear the heart beat!) It broadens your perspective.. it sure did mine. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy and I'm leaving this comment on Wed... so, I hope you heard the heartbeat today ;) Even though I don't actually know you ;)