30 November 2010

feeling better.

goldie is sleeping peacefully in her bed.  her sickness is gone, finally, and she's back to her happy old self.  her schedule is also back--- very thankful for my clock-work baby.  i've had a few days to really sit back and think about what i'm going to do about the way that i'm feeling about things.  i've had a lot of moments of clarity, some really amazing chats with my husband, and i've set some goals for myself that i think are going to be very doable.  

me, contemplating life.  not really, just feeding goldie a bottle i think.

don't you ever just have those random hard weeks?  i haven't had one in awhile, so last week kind of really threw me off balance.  woah there, what is happening?  but i honestly think that we have those moments or weeks (or maybe it's just me) so that we can sit back, be humbled, figure out what really matters, get our feet back, calm down, breathe, and remember that we can do whatever we put our minds to.  i also think we have those moments so that we can remember that we're human and that it's okay to feel down or upset about something. 

anyway, i'm feeling better.  life is good, even when you let it kick you in the face sometimes.


abby said...

i have a lot to say about this subject. when we get together let's skip the small-talk and talk about this instead! :)

Sheryl said...

i wish we lived closer. you're peaceful. i like that.

Morgan said...

I think you are so right. I think that those hard days and weeks (and sometimes even months and years) come because we need to be humbled (Ether 12:27). We need to be reminded that even though we sometimes feel so inadequate, our potential is great (so much greater than we probably even realize) and we can become better people, that even though we sometimes feel so alone and so misunderstood, we have a loving Heavenly Father who is always on our side and who always understands just exactly how we feel and who is always willing to help us if we only just ask.

I'm so, so glad to hear that you're feeling better. I hope that you're having a good day:)

Young People in Love said...

SO relate to this. Thanks.

Jenna said...

Boy I'm glad you posted both the crap week and now the feeling better week. I'm so relieved that it's not just me who goes through that cycle. My husband always jokes that it's "the crazy Jenna" that comes out like it's a different person. And really, I DO feel like somebody different and the guilt and frustration that goes with that is sometimes the hardest part when you're already feeling down. And all you want to know is that you're important and that what you do or are matters to someone.

But know that you're not alone and I think it's more normal than we think! :)